All I want is just to make Them happy

maybe you got bored when i talk about getting married. ok, i'm single, but i'm in love (even i dunno whether he loves me or not). yet people here told me that he's impossible for me to get. and i don't care about what people say. all i need is a miracle. they say i havn't tried hard enough.

when your parents are getting older, when your age number is getting higher, (humanly) you will feel like it's time for you to get married. all i want is both my parents are there when i'm married (i can't imagine what it would be without them). all i want is both my parents are there to play with my kids. that's why i always mumble about getting married ASAP!! all i want is just to make My Parents happy. please make them happy. come on, Lord.. i've been good enough for You all this time, no?

this evening in a busway, when people are eager to get a seat, i was thinking: this seat that i'm sitting on, i believe that Allah already reserved it for me long before i stepped into this busway, long before i open my wallet and pay for the ticket, long before i even think about changing my mind to use busway instead of kopaja! here i can define seat as husband for analogy. i believe that Allah has already reserved a husband for me long before i met him. another question came, what if this evening i didn't get the seat? so, now from the bottom of my heart i'm asking you (yeah you..) to please pray for me. please pray so that i can get married with someone i love. immediately..

iCook: Spaghetti ala Ulil n Fafa

yes! I cook! believe that! well, mostly Ulil was cooking and i was helping a little.. by chopping - chopping something hehehe...

ok here's the ingredients:

1 pack of La Fonte regular pasta (long) - 250 gr I think..

Pasta Sauce - as much as you like

tomato - as much as you like, chopped

bawang Bombay - as much as you like, chopped

sausage - as much as you like, chopped

champion mushroom - as much as you like, chopped

salt - as much as you like

black pepper - as much as you like

cheddar cheese - as much as you like

first, cook the regular pasta in a hot boiling water.. oh, and add some salt also. meanwhile, ask your friend (me! :D) to chop the tomato, bawang bombay, sausage and champion mushroom. i guess ulil was frying the chopped bawang bombay, then tomato, pasta sauce, sausage and champion mushroom (later they all known as a sauce). then after the pasta is perfectly cooked, drain the water. give the pasta some mentega and stir it well. serve in a plate, first take the pasta.. then pour the sauce as topping, add some grated cheese. done!

actually we've made like for 5 portions, but it's finished only by two of us. Bon Appetit!

Sexy Sexy Sexy!!

you might think that good looking men with six-pack and muscle are sexy. well, for me thats not it.

Sexy.. acording to FAFA:

1. a man who can engage me in a conversation for a long time, he definitely is sexy.
2. a man is sexy when he threw some clever and classy jokes. guess what, women love someone who can make them laugh. and oh, I am a woman.
3. a man with brain!! total sexy. enough said.
4. a man with good musical taste is sexy. ;) if he can play instruments that would be great, so we can collaborate. but that don't really matter to me, if he can't then i would just play it. :)
5. a man who likes to sing is sexy.. if he CAN sing, that's a plus :D if I ever ask you for a duet, you are sexy.. and lucky. lol
6. a man who knows how to speak in front of public is sexy. brilliant.
7. a man who knows how to fix things (such as: electricity, household, roof, shoes, etc.) is also sexy.
8. a man with manner is sexy.
9. a man who speaks multiple languages is sooo sexy.. ya that's hot!! :P
10. a man who can cook is also sexy.. just imagine, in the morning he wakes you up by delivering breakfast to your bed. isn't that sweet? :')

but... all the sexiness above is meaningless if he dunno about islam, never performs prayers and dunno how to recite Qur'an perfectly (the tajweed, makhorijul huruf, maqam). :)

Would any man think of me like that?

yesterday i was meeting this girl, Jitte. she's a social scientist from Belgium that interest in hiphop and would like to interview me as her part of her thesis. she saw my performance at Block Battles and she was quite amazed (that's what she said :D), so Herdioflo connected me with her. we made an appointment to meet at Pasar Festival at 7 pm after my office. so i asked Miranti to accompany me, and she asked Ulil also to come which is great. we got there at around almost 8 pm, but Jitte has not yet to come because of macet (welcome to Jakarta! hehe). so we chose Dunkin Donuts, cozy place and it has wi-fi. oh, Miranti bought me a donut! which is really great :D (thankyou Miraaa!). so then Jitte arrived at 9:10 pm (she left the house at 6:30! severe Jakarta macet).

then we started the talking. no i'm not gonna explain about the interview. well most of them are talking about my strength and talents, i rap, i made my own music and... ok, enough said :P. what i wanna tell is, that i told her i never had a boyfriend (cos she asked me that question). after some chats she said something like this, "if i were a man, i would consider you as a quite amazing girl, Fafa" which i put this awww face between surprised/flattered/doubted, which i cannot believe myself if any man would think of me like that, which i just hoped at that time that she was a man! :(( lol.. end of story.

Ikat rambut

Last Friday.. just like usual when i came to the office i've always had this ritual, went to the rest room for a make up.. yes, a make up. just like any other morning-after-a-long-walk, i usually wiped my sweat, this time with a toilet tissue. then i stood under the hand dryer, to dry my 'wet' clothes and hair. then i really did this stupid thing.. i started to untie my hair and continued to dry it. i held my ikat rambut on my left hand, and tissue on my right. there's a trash can next to my left. then here it goes, i threw my ikat rambut to the trash can! well because i thought it's the tissue (that i actually held on the other hand). i still remember how my face looked a second after throwing it. priceless lol! i was gonna take it, but the feel of disgust beaten me.

so for the rest of the day, since no one had an ikat rambut that i could use, i did all my activity with my hair left untied. not that i dont have a rubber band, i do have but it's just 'not my level'. custom rubber band always hurt me especially when i use it on my hair. during my sweaty day, just right in time when i've finished all my works and tidied up my desk, a miracle, i've found an ikat rambut. it was there since forever, i know. but i just dont know who it belongs to. i know i wasnt supposed to take it (since it's not mine), but i wear it anyway.

suddenly i realized something. this is what God wants. it's God's will that i accidentally thrown my ikat rambut. it's God's will that there's another ikat rambut at my desk. the other ikat rambut was prepared there long before i knew i would threw my ikat rambut. it was prepared long before i even asked for it. so this thought relates me to other topic.. a soul mate. i believe He's already prepared my soul mate, long before i even ask for it!!

And with Him are the keys of the unseen; none knows them except Him. And He knows what is on the land and in the sea. Not a leaf falls but that He knows it. And no grain is there within the darknesses of the earth and no moist or dry [thing] but that it is [written] in a clear record. (QS Al-An'am 6:59)

From Sarden, with Love..

Good Morniiiiinnnggggg.... let's see what do we have today..? aaaah new menu! Nuggets ^o^ yesterday i spent a night with my uncles' family. and one of my aunts bought a pack of chicken nuggets (500 gr), and it cost only Rp15000. just then i had in mind, let's say it contains 20 pcs, then it will cost 1500 per 2 pcs. well, it's actually more than 20 pcs though (around 30 or 40 i guess). ok, that's cheap enough. now let's cook some.

i take you back to my first months here in Jakarta.. at the very first few months, i've been a very very accountable person (let's say.. saving). i've always counted every detail outcomes. every day i bought perkedel for lunch, which only cost Rp1000 :D lol.. as the days gone by.. when everything became more expensive, the size of perkedel is getting smaller but still with the same price. then i changed to another menu, telur dadar (omelet) which cost Rp2000 :D lol.. can you imagine, the same meals for daily routines? ok then the price of telur dadar was increased become Rp2500 and got smaller size. i then found another dish that exactly has the same price with telur dadar. a sarden (sardine). i thought that it contains more protein (but i dunno). every day i brought sarden for lunch, and my colleagues was like called me "Fafa Sarden" or something -_-' when i thought that the price of sarden is getting more irrational, i switched to vegetables (thats one of my reason to become a vegetarian only at lunch). sayur only cost Rp2000 but after a week i was getting bored. could be because of the taste or less variation. i just cant understand how can a person survived in becoming a vegetarian for 30 years and goes on!?!?!?!

and today it seems like i've found another menu :D so, welcome nuggets hehehe.. cooked only in a rice cooker (i called it my multi functional rice cooker) cos i'm too lazy to go down to the kitchen. at first i have no idea on how i will cook this nuggets, whether i 'fried' it with butter or oil, or i chopped into small pieces.. then here's what i do.. just cooked it in a rice cooker, without oil. good smell though.. and i think i smell something's burnt now!

First time after sooooome time..

3 January 2011, first working day in 2011, will be my witness cos i'm gonna wear a skirt to office :D i cant remember when was the last time i wear a skirt. let's hope that i'm not gonna mess it up.

I'm pregnant?!

since past few months i've been thinking of wearing skirt.. well, actually this idea came up from a friend's suggestion. he said that i should be more feminine. yesterday i went to PGC (Pusat Grosir Cililitan) with my aunt, to look for some skirts. been through so many stores, been seen so many motives but nothings fit me! frustated, then i went to maternity store. they got some pregnant skirts made of jeans. i tried one. surprisingly, it fitted me. then the storekeeper showed me the left side of the skirt. she said, "if your pregnancy is getting bigger, u can loosen this string. it's made of rubber" i was like "fuck! now she must be thinking i'm pregnant!" then she loosen the rubber and the front of the skirt was also loose a bit.. then i left after she said that.

it's hard to look for some outfit when you're size is FAFA size. :( i think i need to start diet or fasting or working out. i wish i were 25 kgs slimmer.. well actually i'm not that fat! big only on certain parts of my body like thigh, butt,... oh, once Miranti told me when i asked her if my stomach is big, "your boobs are bigger than your belly" and she still considered that as an OK hehehe :D

so after a veryyyy looooong search... finally got this two skirts that fit me. not the best cut or motives, but like i first said, they're the only skirts that fit me! lol.. at first they cost Rp135,000 each (from a different store). after some bargaining i got Rp80,000 for the grey one and Rp85,000 for the purple one. *but hell i still consider it as EXPENSIVE!!*

thing that becomes my question is, "will i have guts to wear them?" :s