Wasup 2009?!

i still remember, last year, 31 December 2007, in the afternoon i spent my time with Taz cs (Nasa, Dini, Ifeb) watching Bee Movie at Delta Plaza. actually we didn't wanna watch that movie, but it's the only movie that had some empty seats and fitted with our schedule. the movie was fun, but didn't sad enough to make me cry. but yeah wicked times.. and in the night i had to deal with my final project cos the deadline was on January 15th lol. and i passed the midnight ('til 2 am) by chatting with a friend who much less helped me in finishing my final project. haha.. i miss those times.. and tonight, how am i gonna spend my new year's eve? i'm gonna turn my cell phone off, and i hope i can catch sleep before 12 or 11 pm. then i'll wake up in the next morning :D i guess it's perfect. about my resolution for 2009, hmmm.. i haven't thought about it. Happy new year 2009!! but how can i be happy if i heard the news about Palestine. they got attack by Israel. they cannot even feel the freedom in their own country. i hope Allah will always protect all brothers and sisters from all of the bad things.

Get well soon, L.T.K

Just heard from a friend that Loetoenk a.k.a LTK is now at the hospital. he's got a lung tumor. i'm not sure if he's a smoker or not, but hey, this could be happened because of the ciggarettes' smokes. i know excactly when there were hip-hop party or even just a technical meeting (and a non-tech meeting), you can count how many people who DIDN'T smoke. me and LTK have near birthday, his on January 10th while mine is on January 13th. i'm not really close with him, only met him when there were hip-hop show, and by online on Yahoo Messenger (he always messaged me first with the word "papaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" always with the long 'a' lol). but he's such a good friend, he's taken my video performance on rap 'n roll back in 2007. for gaining funds for LTK, Surabaya hiphop will hold an event on January 4th  2009 at Samola DJ Shop. for everyone who wants to participate, you will be charged Rp20,000 per group. awwww really sad to hear the news, hope Allah will cure you, get well soon homie..

My WishList..

"i'm 23 now but will i live to see 24?" Coolio - Gangsta's paradise.

next month i'll be 24. if i can make a wish (well actually more than just one wish lol), i'll ask for : a job (this is what people around me (not me!) need and want me to get at the moment), a husband (this can be later on after i got the job haha..), a room completed with a set of home studio equipment (ok, this one is expensive lol.. then i should get the job first), and of course healthy, happiness, blessings and other natural common wishes..

another one that i had dreamed for so long is... that one day i can go to hajj. could be with my parents or my husband. just when i'm not yet too old, before my body get weak.

ok, to make things short..

1. go hajj

2. a job

3. a husband

4. a home studio

5. ...

Copyright? Patent? License?

i've just participated in a survey about Creative Commons Licenses. actually this is something i've missed. and i wonder if any of my friends here care or know about this issues. the protection of an invention starts when the invention first exist. so when the original artist published their song for the first time, the copyright will automatically belong to the artist. exclusive rights means the artist and the others who own the copyrights may copy, reproduce and sell the copies, import and export the creation, adapt the creation, publish the creation, sell or forward the exclusive rights to other party. so the registration of a creation is not a must, but the letter of registration can be an evidence in court if one day there's a case about the creation. i'm not really experienced in this, and i know how it feels when your tune is used by others without asking your permission.

Outfit (part 1)

i'm gonna show you some shoes for my performances. actually there are two more, but these are the latest.

i used to wear this shoes when i went to campus actually, and for my daily activities. i bought it when i was on my last semester of Diploma 3 in PENS-ITS, it was in early 2005. and i wear it until i graduate from my Bachelors in ITS, in early 2008. i bought it in Pasar Atom, and the price was Rp 200,000. i like wearing it cos it’s easy to use, just slipped your foots and you’re ready to walk, and it made me a little bit taller lol. this one is light but strong, even my dad had to glue it over and over and it’s been stitched one. but now i don’t wear it anymore cos it’s broken and the repairing things won’t work.

cos the first one has broken, so i bought this one. actually i never care about branded things. for me, as long as it good and i enjoy it, no matter branded or brandless, if i have enough money, i'll buy. and i will never buy the same kind until it's damaged. lucky that my foot size are small (38 or 39, smaller than my younger sister's) so i always found the right shoes easily. sometimes i use my sister's shoes too :D

this one i bought only Rp 162,000 in JMP, bonus socks and key-chain lol. i first wore it in my graduation day. i use this one occasionally, for the job interview things. i don't like wearing lady-like shoes, but i have to. besides, its heels are not sharp so i can walk almost without having difficulty. and this definitely makes me few inches taller. i never use this on my performance, but i will probably ;)

Once a rapper, always a rapper

i met a rapper whom i've never seen in this past 4 years. his name is Conrad, he's a German and was studying in one of university in Surabaya. i only met him twice in 2004, first when i became one of the performer in Close Up ramadhan at Mc Donald's, and he was kinda rapping a little, and second when there's a rap performance from Oka at Hugo's Cafe. just then i found his facebook, when i asked him if he's still rapping, he answered, "well, once a rapper, always a rapper, hehehe." i wish i could say that too. i enjoyed rapping, flowing, rhyming, writing smart disses, but things were different now. i don't have that idea to write classy songs anymore, i guess i'm loosing the spirit of making them. i'm getting old and i barely know the names of those new emcees, but i'm sure that they knew me cos i'm... different. i guess this is it. i will still be a rapper and i'm going to be part of Surabaya hip hop awakening. still, the same old me. and i will stop rapping, only if my husband tells me to :) fyi, i don't wanna have a husband who is a hiphopper lol.. i shouldn't ask for something better while me myself is a rapper. crap!

Disaster!

just got home from another performance after some time, and you know what, i forgot my 2nd verse lyric! hahahaaaaa... i guess i was tired, cos i went to Solo on Thursday and went back home on Friday. and i was with Tyas for the whole Friday. as for today i only prepared the songs one night before, and finished the instrumentals in the morning. the show is called "HipHop in Unity", it's a show to introduce people of hip hop movement in Surabaya. but the audience weren't so enthusiastic, maybe it's because of the bad place selection. it was held in a mall, but the mall wasn't too crowded, and the venue was hidden (it's somewhere in the corner, and i was having a hard time to find the location itself). i went with Tavia and my sister, at first i wanted Tavia to help me on the chorus part, but she's not confident with herself. and i told my sister that i can't memorized the lyric, she said that i should rap anything in case i forgot. then it happened, after the chorus i was totally blank, words came from my mouth but i couldn't understand them either. in my heart i wished that Chuckie (the DJ) would understand me and continue to the next track, in fact he didn't! seem like he didn't care at all, but then i heard someone's rapping. an emcee with purple shirt and cap came behind me and helped me to fill the emptiness. ok then, it's not so bad lol.. and the 2nd song went well anyway.

Inspiration or ... ?

sometimes when i make musics or rap, i often (not too often) found that my tunes sounded like others. whether they are the tones, or my rap flows. most of it happened unintentionally, and i realized it just when the songs are done. hmmm i said most, so what about the rest? i used to listen to some musics for my reference. well not by any means of being imitator or plagiarizer, i might have copied, but i always add something different in it. i tried so that my role models didn't dominate my style. i took a little from them and add a lot from me. so i just called it 'inspired' (intentionally) and 'accidentally inspired' :P

"Lagi sibuk apa?"

this question bothers me lately, lol. "lagi sibuk apa?" ("what are you busy with?") cos i'm not busy with music making so i just answer "sibuk cari kerja, sama sibuk cari jati diri" ("busy with job searching and self character searching") since i'm not working yet, and yeah it's really hard to find a job in Indonesia. and now most of the outsourcing companies are making the contract which is not profitable for the employee. alumni of ITS with GPA above 3 just ain't enough! well it depends.. depends on how hard you try to get that job and fate. i didn't say luck, cos it doesn't mean that when you don't get that job then you're not lucky. who knows that God decides you not to work there because it will cause bad effect for you in another day. my friend told me this..

Allah answers prayers in 3 ways :

1. says yes and gives u what u want

2. says no and gives u something better

3. says wait and gives u the best in the perfect time

at least it can chill me a little :) i wonder.. is there any job for childish people like me?

We don't need no education

"seneng deh semua female emcee otaknya gokil2!" that's what Yacko said when i told her that i've finished my bachelors. yes, i graduate in March 2008 from Electrical Engineering ITS majoring Telecommunication Multimedia. and ya i think so, many female emcees in indonesia are having good education background. ok let's start.. Yacko, she's a lecturer and she's got her MBA from University of Wollongong, Graduate Diploma of Applied IT from University of Sydney, Bachelor of Business Administration from Edith Cowan, Bachelor of Economic from Trisakti University (whoaaaa how come she has loads of degree in such a young age). Scario Da Sylva, she's finished her bachelors from IPB. Inka, Ndeesaster, and Lady Gan are now studying in Universitas Indonesia. Missy Allen, she's studying in UNPAD. i believe that there are a lot more names than what i've mentioned above. if you know something, then please let me know :) is that enough by just having degree? i think that the true lesson we get when we are outside of school. we learn how to communicate with others, how to respect others and how to get respect from others. we can measure our maturity by seeing how tough we overcome the obstacles, how good we take responsibilities. i'm not trying to say that i've experienced in this. in fact that i'm just a childish and spoiled girl. but now i'm learning, cos one day i must grow whether i like it or not. i learn from all the mistakes i've done. i learn how to make a decision in an instant. i learn to see things from a different view. sometimes we need to loosen up our ego a little. and when trouble comes, always, don't forget that we still have God.

Was it an accident?

i often ask myself a question, why do i step into hip hop? the same question that Ndok has given, "koq kamu bisa terjun ke sini (hip hop)? kamu tuh pantesnya jadi guru ngaji." i bet you'll say the same thing if you were my friends and have known me for a long time, lol. so what about Yacko, Ndeesaster, Lady Gan and other female rappers? well, they are good precedents to follow, but i started rapping before i knew that they're exist. i was a vocalist of a band when i was in senior high school. we're all girls and we played pop, top 40, and anything we could (GNR, RHCP, The Offspring, Pearl Jam). we've been into some festivals and cafe. when i was on the 2nd grade, we planned to try Eminem's song called Stan. i dunno they wanna torture me or what, cos the lyric is a long one, and i haven't really listened to hip hop at that time (i listened to RATM, Slipknot, Deftones, Korn), but i memorized all the lyric and flow only in 2 days. after that we played Limpbizkit, Crazy Town, Linkin Park, and i started to enjoy rapping. when i went to a college, another senior high school friend (Ndok) introduced me to hip hop. he's a b-boy (breakdancer) from SKJ (Soerabaja KedJang) and bomber (graffiti writer), he lent me cassettes, one i can remember was from KrisKross (the oldschool one). he also told me names of famous Surabaya hiphoppers, and also introduced me to hiphopindo site. one day, on the radio there's an interview with Wisha (Surabaya's senior rapper), so i called the radio and asked him how to write lyric and music. he explained in details about the tricks and the software for making beat, and he even gave me his phone number, on air. once i text him that i rap on MTV, it was a Linkin Park pre-party concert and i got the free invitation, there's a game and i rap, the camera took me fore some seconds lol. and then on early 2004 i met Saykoji from hiphopindo, and asked him details about making good lyrics and music. he told me something about syllables, punchlines, metaphors and a little about beat making technique. thanx God that all those people are willing to answer my questions clearly. after that i followed radio battles. after sometime of those performances, Ivan another Surabaya senior rapper, called me with 'Fafa - The next Yacko' at first i dunno who Yacko is, he said that my voice is similiar to her. then i knew that we went to the same junior high school (SMP 6 Surabaya), if i'm not mistaken, she's from class of '91 and i'm from class of '96. i never meet her in person, only by email (when she had her concert in Surabaya (2005), in one of univ in Surabaya (UNTAG), in front of my house, i didn't meet her, cos i was doing my final project book and the next day was the deadline and my presentation. so i only heard the crowd and her raps from inside of my house), i'm looking forward to meet her actually. she's a nice girl to talk with, i asked for her thought too when i wanna continue my study. at first i just knew her by her voice when a radio interviewed her, and i don't think her voice is identical to mine, at all! only when i heard her song (so what) in the radio, i was like, 'damn.. who's that girl.. she copy me'. my friends at college also said the same thing, they thought that it was me singing the song on the radio. so the issue about the voice was true. then i started to build my own voice character, and i made it far from hers. once in 2004, i become a finalist in a Surabaya rap competition (from 10 finalists, i was the only girl). it was my first solo performance in front of very large audience, it was an outdoor performance at Mc Donald's Basuki Rahmat. before i stepped to the stage, a guy greeted me and wished me a good luck. but i just smiled and said 'ya thanx..' like to the others. i wasn't in a fit condition that night, i forgot some words in the third verse of my lyrics :P but still the audience was super. when i came down, the guy who greeted me came to me and shake my hand, he introduced himself, 'Wisha..' God i was surprised and a little embarrassed lol. and we only had a small talk. in early 2005 i became the opening act for a group rap Twin Sista from Malang. it was in Qemi Club Surabaya and i performed together with Era, Chemie and Kojex. we had a little conversation, they shared their first performance story, they said that they were totally blank and forgot the lyrics during their first performance in Ground Zero (so i'm not the only one having a bad first time performance experience lol. but mine wasn't really bad thou hehehe). in early 2006 i followed the audio battle on a website. i only did 6 times (5 wins, 1 draw), at least it can improve my english a little :D and in early 2007 i released my so-called indie album called Camouflage.

so now what is it all about? was it an accident for me being a female rapper? and i dunno if i wanna go fully into hip hop. i'm not sure, yet..

Back from the death..

i've finished my study.. and i was kinda paused my hip hop activities for a while.. and after having some lack of inspirations, halt of creativity, i guess now i'm gonna stand up and fight again. once a friend told me, "never let go of your dreams, they're what keep you from tumbling back to reality..." and i've just realized that some people do not want me to quit from this game. and i admit that i still miss the vibe, the crowd and the camera blitz when i was on the stage holding the microphone.. priceless moments :) even if the hip hop scene in Surabaya is not really awake lately, i'm sure that one day the era will be repeated, and we will rule just like previous names you've heard from Surabaya. i believe that i can still produce good shits even when i don't use expensive equipments..